i'm into big typography lately. you think it's just a phase i'm going through? like we're talking, 30 point minimum.

every time

Every time it rains, I love it. And every time it rains, I remember that scene in Goonies when they're all in the attic going through all the junk and they find the treasure map and somebody tells the story of One-Eyed Willie and pirates and this place across town and through the woods.

And as the rain comes down and pelts on the roof just outside my window, I'm in that moment. I'm living that moment. And I connect with that one kid with the inhaler because he has asthma and I have asthma and he can't wait for an adventure and I can't wait for one either.

Every time it rains, I wish I was a 14-year-old kid looking for treasure clues in an attic with Cindy Lauper songs dancing in my head.

found it.

found
i found my journal on saturday morning while i was putting new sheets on my bed.

weekend
this weekend was fun; i watched two KU games in their entirety and i'm somehow becoming a fan of their run to an NCAA title this year. my friend skylar was visiting and we hung out saturday night and all-day today.

vay-cay
i'm making good on some vacation time this month. i'll be retreating on two different extended weekends. i really, really look forward to that time. (it really can't come quick enough right now)

ideal self
what is ideal self? is there a part of your life you're just waiting to come together? is there a place you'll arrive when everything will come together and things will be good? when music will become more brilliant? when work will seem lighter? i've discovered that two years ago, the job i have now was my ideal self. and now that i am here, i'm not satisfied. but that kind of focus is on the here & now.

as a 20-something Christian, where should my focus be? should it be on a good job? working towards a raise? finding a spouse whom i adore? getting my own mortgage? paying off my college debt? or should it be any of these things? my mind tells me that these are the things i should build my future upon.

each one is a responsible thing to do, but is it something that makes or breaks my happiness? are these things that I really can trust in or rely on? read psalm 90. the entire passage talks about humbling ourselves to look outside of money for our comfort. here's a small part of the chapter.

"Satisfy us each morning with your unfailing love,
so we may sing for joy to the end of our lives."
psalm 90.14 (NLT)

i've lost...

...my analog blog. (i think)

the things you can't hear

i have placed things on my heart & left them there for several weeks & months now. i've arrived at age 24 finding that friends must be trusted & to go silent on the things of the heart feels good. i love that feeling. in fact, for two months i've been addicted to that feeling: the silence of the heart.

i just feel like i'm locking things up with God. and that i've been given some sort of right to do that. what i don't like is this void in my life. i feel like i'm missing something huge. and it all has to do with silence.

it's almost as if i've taken a vow of silence in efforts to fill the void. it feels like fasting, because it takes great self-control. i've grown up in the church -- i've been going to church my entire life. they say that Jesus fills the voids of our heart. in fact, if i had to explain Jesus Christ to someone, i would probably have to walk them through emptiness. i can't describe it.

it's probably time i start believing that Jesus fills voids.

css

i feel like i've picked up the basic skills to great, valid css. it's web-speak for i feel like i've learned a ton in the last year in regards to css design. to appreciate css, check out a site like this.

Grief. Finding God in all circumstances.

I came home from being out tonight to find a wonderful article written by a well-published author named John Piper in my gmail inbox. Piper's conviction & dedication to truth stands as his highest merit in writing. Yet, normally his newsletters don't arouse me. His books are a different story -- I read those.

But tonight's article was entitled, "Hello, My Father Just Died." I knew this was going to be a close encounter with my favorite author. Read the story here. And while you're at it, dwell on the deeper things of life tonight.

**cheers**

i'm thankful for...

+ the perfect job
+ a kick-butt creative director
+ music that takes me back to summer 2004
+ endlessly talented co-workers
+ my parents
+ singleness
+ the maturity that exudes one the age of 24 years
+ photoshop brushes
+ helping others

my compy

I hate my PC. I had moved my machine from my bedroom to the downstairs living room at the end of last summer. When I made the move, I wasn't even motivated to get my sound system hooked up again. To heck with it, I thought. I thought it an excuse not to use my computer in the evenings when I got home from work.

It's now March and I just set up the sound system. Which is great. Now I can listen to music @ home again.

I'm a mac geek now and have been for two years now. I was thinking about the point at which I became a mac-lover the other day. It was actually very, very frustrating for me to not have the right to right-clicking when I was taking design courses in college. After I worked a part-time college job on a mac, I fell in love.

I then remembered the several times I made fun of my professor's iBook while I was in college. To her face. We were good friends. I just liked kidding her. What a jerk I was!! I now make the same comments about PC's. Irony. Ignorance. Small-brained me. I'm surprised she didn't laugh me out of her classroom. Since I wanted to be a designer and all.

Okay, this post is over. My writing has been extremely kiddish and straight-forward. **end post**

the nyc

i'm moving to nyc. for a week. some people call it vacation. i call it fourth of july fun. i get to see the fourth celebrations & fanfares, i get to see george steinbrenner and the yankees and les miserables on broadway (hopefully in English, b/c i don't speak a lick of french).

cheers, friends!
sean

blogs & RSS

i'm updating a blog i coded for my friend last fall and I just love building upon the architecture i set up @ that time. normally, getting into old code & moving things around isn't any fun @ all -- but i built this one with some pretty good organization & i'm having fun adding functionality to it.

i'm actually stripping out comments b/c we were getting spammed quite a bit. but i'm adding an RSS feed, a paginator & making sure that Google loves the site enough to get some better traffic.

the blog is for jon shirley. i'll post the RSS feed once it's up.